Dreams...

Okay I have to share this. The other day I had a dream. It was one of those dreams that are just so weird and so much happens that you cannot forget about it. So here is my dream that I had about a week or so ago...

My dream, from what I remember, starts with my husband telling me that he was going to his dad's for thanksgiving and only he was invited. ( So I assume that this takes place around Thanksgiving). I was furious with this. So I am yelling at him as to why he can only go. He says that they need him to come and cut the turkey. That he is only going there to cut the turkey. So I am like "WTH? Why do they need you to come and cut the turkey? Why can't they do it themselves?" and he says that he was also cooking the turkey at our house out on the grill! ( I know! The grill?) So at this point I look up out the window and suddenly realize that I am at my great grandmother's ranch and in her house. Her house was my house. The only difference was that there was a lake where the cows in the field should be.

Let me describe this house. it is large for one thing. they had a balcony that came out from the 2nd floor livingroom and it stretched the length of the house. From here you could see out into the fields where the cows roamed. Behind the house there were acres of forest. There are sliding glass doors that lead to the balcony.

So then we walk outside and I see that there is a turkey on the BBQ grill. Then suddenly there are two bears on our porch. One Black and one brown. The Brown one, which appears to be a grizzly bear, smacks my husband across his head and knocks him out. I am desperate to get him in to the house when the black bear takes a swipe at me and his claws gets stuck in my shirt. I somehow broke the bears claw and that bear goes running off the porch, yelping. But the brown bear is determined to have my husband and drags him off the steps that lead down off the porch to the ground. Unable to do anything I quickly run into the house, yelling at the kids to stay inside and away from the doors and windows and grabbing the phone to dial 911. Suddenly some how my father in law and my mom are there. I don't know if they were already there or if they just got there. I think my mom just showed up, b/c I had one of the kids try and call her on the cell phone, but she had already gotten there.

This is were my dream gets weird. Somehow I was able to rewind it and change the outcome. I rewinded to right after the brown bear knocks hubby out and the black bear swipes at me and I break its claw and then it goes running. Then this time I took the turkey and threw it down off the porch, figuring that this is what the bears were after. Pulled hubby into the house and dialed 911. Oldest child tells me that my ear is bleeding and I show her the claw from the bear. Hubby comes to and tells me to "get the gun." (we don't currently own a gun, but OK) So I find this rifle looking thing and start shooting at the bears. I got the black bear and it drops with one hit, but the brown bear took a lot of shots to finally get it down.

Then I wake up. So this dream has stuck with me and I am very curious what my dream is trying to tell me.

According to this dream guide. Black means unhappiness. Fighting or killing a bear means I will beat my enemies. Brown means money/luck, though another one said illness.

so this is my take on it. You all know that me and hubby and had rough patches. Some days we just don't get along, but for the most part we do. I think when the bear attacked and took him, I think that was me letting him go and trying to focus on me. But then in the second part of my dream when I changed that outcome, I think that was telling me that I still want him around and I don't want him to go. The fact that hubby got hit in the head and was knocked out. I think it had to do with his mouth or head, health wise. B/c get this. I did not know my hubby was in pain and I found out on Sat. that he was having horrible tooth pain. He went to the dentist on Tues. and scheduled an appt. for a root canal. One that he needed for sometime now. It was so bad that it spread to the surrounding teeth. Last Saturday I was telling hubby about a show I watched where the lady did autopsies an one of the people she did one on was very healthy and athletic and young and just died one day. It started out like the flu and then he just collapse one day and died before the ambulance arrived. She later found out that he died from an abscess in his tooth that needed a root canal. The infection spread to his blood and basically he died from an infected tooth. Blood poisoning.

I don't know what the rest of my dream means, but this part makes sense to me now.

Please tell me what you think.

Nothin left to loose

OK this was taken from Seattlegal and sounded like fun. I have done one before on another blog that did songs for the story of your life, but here is one that is a little different.

Directions:1. Put your iTunes, Windows Media Player, iPod etc. on shuffle.
2. For each question, press the next button to get your answer.
3. YOU MUST WRITE THAT SONG NAME DOWN NO MATTER HOW SILLY IT SOUNDS


1. IF SOMEONE SAYS "IS THIS OKAY" YOU SAY? 1985- Bowling for soup

2. HOW WOULD YOU DESCRIBE YOURSELF? Suddenly- Ashley Tisdale

3. WHAT DO YOU LIKE IN A GUY/GIRL? Ice Ice baby - Vanila Ice

4. HOW DO YOU FEEL TODAY? Fat bottomed girls - Queen

5. WHAT IS YOUR LIFE'S PURPOSE? Stand By me - Ben E. King

6. WHAT IS YOUR MOTTO?Calling all angels - Train

7. WHAT DO YOUR FRIENDS THINK OF YOU? Thriller - Michael Jackson

8. WHAT DO YOUR PARENTS THINK OF YOU? Kickstart my heart - Motley crue

9. WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT VERY OFTEN? Someday - Nickelback

10. WHAT IS 2 + 2? Trouble - Pink

11. WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR EX? Iris - Goo Goo Dolls

12. WHAT DO YOU THINK OF THE PERSON YOU LIKE? Why?- Gabrielle

13. WHAT IS YOUR LIFE STORY? What a wonderful world - Louis Armstrong

14. WHAT DO YOU WANT TO BE WHEN YOU GROW UP? This ain't a scene, it's an arms race - Fallout Boy

15. WHAT DO YOU THINK WHEN YOU SEE THE PERSON YOU LIKE? Broken - Seether feat. Amy Lee

16. WHAT WILL THEY PLAY AT YOUR FUNERAL? SEXYBACK - Justin Timberlake ;P

17. WHAT IS YOUR HOBBY/INTEREST? New Slang - The Shins

18. WHAT IS YOUR BIGGEST FEAR? In The End - Linkin Park

19. WHAT IS YOUR BIGGEST SECRET? Lonely - Akon

20. WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR FRIENDS? True friend - Hannah Montana

Now press Next one more time and use it as your title.

Title song by Matt Kearney


Suprisingly I did this exactly as directed and this was the results. Some of the songs are sneezers. ( we share the itunes)

Christmas break

Christmas break started on Dec. 19th. On Dec. 20th we went to our first Christmas party for this year. This was a white elephant party that was so much fun. Sneezer left with a Chia* pet and Hubby got a gift card to star*bucks. I left with a gift that I brought, but seeing how we brought 3, and there was only 8 people, I guess that was bound to happen. I brought a handheld digital poker game.

Dec. 22 was our second Christmas party. It was at my grandmother in law's house. This party is a big thing every year. Cousins, along with all of hubby's siblings, are there. There were a few emotional times when we realized that Matthew was not coming. He always showed up late, so we just ate our dinner and usually when we are done eating is when he shows up. But he was not there this year. One of my nieces fell down and hurt her ear badly. It was not too bad, but when you are 11, it is painful. Another niece made and comment, " something was bound to happen!" she is 7. I chuckle a little that such grown up words were coming out of her mouth, but the mother and the mother's sister got into an argument on how inappropriate it was for her to say it. I left that conversation quickly. I did not need to get into the middle of that.

Dec. 24 was another Christmas celebration. I wouldn't call this one so much a party. It was dinner at my parents house. We tried to watch Star*Dust, but with eating and opening present, it was not possible to pay attention to the movie. I really do want to watch that movie. I got such great gifts from my parents. New towels to match our "new" bathroom, new towels for the kitchen and gift cards for a night out with hubby, I am assuming that includes babysitting services too? We also opened gifts from my sister who lives in Seattle but sent gifts over with friends. (Thank you Ally and Paul for that!!) I got a book called "good dog. stay." and hubby got a gift card for tar*get. The kids got some clothes and of course toys from the grandparents. All in all this was a good night.

Dec 25. Christmas day.. Woke up and waited for the kids to wake up on their own. Sho-sho was the last one to wake. Cj came into my room and asked if they could just sort the presents. Uh no! I told them they needed to wait til Sho-sho was awake. So you know what he did? He went in to her room, stood at the foot of the bed and whispers her name several times until she opens her eyes and then he screams " She's awake!!!" I don't think she was to happy with this until she realized that we can open the presents that had been sitting there for sooo long. The kids really got way to much stuff. New star wars toys, video games, Cj got a fishing pole that of course D is angry about, and Sho-sho got many, many new babies. I got hubby some new cologne, a new bathrobe, and I made a photo album for him of the kids. I also made him one of his brother, but gave it to him several days before. I wasn't sure of what his reaction would have been to that, so I didn't want to give it to him on Christmas morning.

At Noon we headed to Hubby's dad's house. It was awkward b/c it was mostly the step family there. It was just us from his dad's side of the family. It was a nice party though. It was sad seeing Tallon there, he was Matt's dog and you could just see the sadness in his eyes. He just sat on the back porch like he was waiting for Matt to come back. I got a really nice throw blanket and Hubby got a tool set from his dad. The kids got more toys.

After this Christmas lunch, we went home and laid in bed. It was an exhausting Holiday and now that it was over, it was time to relax!! This year was so stressful, I actually got a little something for everyone and just to let you know how many people that is, I am going to tell you.
My husband has 3 brothers ,one is married, one has passed, 2 sisters, one is married, 3 step brothers, in which one is married, 2 step sisters whom are both married, 4 nieces, 2 step nieces and 6 step nephews. And then my side is 2 brothers and one sister whom is married and 1 nephew and 1 niece. Plus I have 2 mother-in-laws and a father- in law and my parents too. I was surprised that I got them all.

Well this post is getting long and I have to start getting busy here, so I will write about new years perhaps some time next week.