My doctor appt.

Yesterday I went to go to see the doctor about some discomfort I was having. It turned out to be just a Yeast infection, but I was freaking out b/c earlier this week I Googled my symptoms and got completely freaked out at some of the possibilties. But thankfully it is just a yeast infection.

So about a year and half ago, I went in for my last pap and discuss with the doctor my concerns about a lump that I found. He wasn't able to feel it, but b/c I was about to start my period he suggested that I came back after my period was over and we check again 'together'. So I schedule the appt. for about 3 weeks later, but in those 3 weeks, my mother found a lump in her breast and it turned out to be cancer. I completely freaked and decided not to go to my follow up appt. I guess I just didn't want to worry my mom when she was already going through something tough herself. So now that my mother is in remission, I decided that I would bring up my concerns at my appt. yesterday. He felt the lump, along with 2 other ones. I know that I should have gone for the follow up way back when, but I just felt that it was time now. I guess I just needed time to prepare myself for what ever, and also shortly after that I almost had my kidney rupture and was on alot of meds. for that, so I didn't really want to worry about anything else. Anything else that would cause me discomfort.

So my appt. for the mammogram is on the 27th of this month. I am having my mom come with me. Mostly to watch Sho-sho, but I guess also for support. I told her last night what the mammogram was for, but it didn't seem to phase her. She just wanted to get her paperwork done for work. The doctor said that considering my age and the fact that I have some tenderness, that it is more than likely some cysts. My husband thinks that it is nothing. He says " How unheard of is it for a 30 year old to have breast cancer?" Not unheard of at all. I mean I heard the same exact thing 5 years ago with my son. " Oh it sounds like kidney stones, but it couldn't be. He's only 4." But 5 years later he is still seeing a kidney specialists. He had so many stones that the last one was removed about 2 years ago and he has had a clear bill of health since then. *knock on wood* But the point I am trying to make is that these things do not discriminate by age.

I am somewhat concerned about this, but then again, like I said, I have had time to prepare myself. I have seen the possible outcomes. I have known that this lump was there and just told people that it went away b/c I didn't want the fuss. I don't want a fuss know and was actually conteplating not telling my husband or anyone. But then I needed a babysitter to watch Sho-sho and depending on how long it takes, to be here for CJ when he got out of school. I won't start freaking out completely until I hear "biopsy". If I don't hear that, then all is good.

So I was extremely tired last night. I wanted to go to sleep so badly, but there was a Spongebob marathon on that started at 8pm last night and goes until 7:30pm tonight. Sho-sho's favorite show is Spongebob, so she would not go to sleep and was actually singing along with the theme, while I was trying to sleep. *singing* "bob bob pear pants." it was cute, but hey she is only 4 so she tries to get the words!! So I woke up several times last night and could not get to sleep. Mostly b/c of the meds. I am on made my stomach hurt.

Oh my neighbor came down last night. I would call her my friend, but she only seems to talk to me when she needs something. Never to just talk. And when I call her, she always seems to have to go and do something w/ her daughter. Although I see her talking on her phone all the time?? I mean she just got married last month and she didn't even invite me. hmmm? But anyway, I told her that my sister is finally pregnant and that the IVF did work. She told me to tell her when I was going to send her a care package and that she would send something too so that we didn't have to pay shipping twice. You know I didn't even think of that. I mean I was wanting to get her a gift, but I didn't know what yet. I was going to wait until after she had her ultrasound til I decided on what to send. But I felt bad for telling her and maybe that was wh yshe got off the phone with me quickly. Oh she came down here to ask about my neighbor b/c I guess someone that was visiting there was priorly doing doughnuts in the intersection and came close to hitting her car. So anyway, forgetting to tell her about my sister, I called her. So this is why I think she got off the phone with me. She has had 2 babies. Her first was when she was only 16 or so and her other one is two. The older one was adopted by its biological granparents. Upon trying to have a baby with her current husband, she had experienced many miscarriages. She finally became pregnant with her daughter 3 years ago and after she was a year or so old, was trying again for a sibling for her daughter, only to have miscarriages month after month. She finally decided that the losses were to painful and decided to have her tubes tied to prevent any further miscarriages. So althought she is happy for my sister, I think a part of her is sad b/c she does want to have more but can't.

well anyway, that is an update of my day yesterday. fun huh?